Marly, i guess this is goodbye... I wasn't able to come over tonight, so there are a few things I'd like you to know. I will be leaving tomorrow after the funeral, but we might come back up next weekend, witch means another stake dance that we could go to, but if this isn't possible... well...

I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape, to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, and a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you, will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me, just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

I'm sober now for 3 whole months, it's one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won't touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so fucking far away that I'll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
'Till I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling, "Make it go away," just make a smile
Come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered, "How can you do this to me?"

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see whats good for you.
For You
For You
For You

It seemed whenever I wasn't with you, even when we weren't boyfriend and girlfriend, I was sad, miserable. Sixth grade sucked more than anything, I had attempted suicide that year because of so... But I met you, and all that sadness and depression seemed to disappear... I don't know what I'll to without you... You seemed to be my saving angel sent from heaven... You made life worth living... I actually woke up most days looking forward to seeing you, and that would be the only reason I would get up for school...
I love you Marly, but I want to see you at peace because of so... It tears me apart seeing you sad, making want to kill my self again...
I love you Marly, more than anything, and I will never forget you. But for your peace, please, try to forget me... God it kills me to say that... But I think that is what is best for you...
I love you and always will, if our paths to happen to cross in the future, you will still have in my heart, my arms will still be open to you, no matter what...

I love you Marly...
Love, Zak Ketchum